May 21 2012 at 12:24pm
All of the relationships I have had taught me many lessons also helped break me outta my shell. I built up enough courage to be in a calendar. Never thought I'd make it actually on the calendar in a million years, but I wanted to do it to prove a point. Makin it in boosted my spirits and my drive. I let myself be open to many things I had hidden from out of fear or low self esteem. Met great men and made numerous friends. Have had a couple relationships since this new development and few fun nights that didn't necessarily lead to a relationship. I didn't hide from the unknown or questionable, simply waded through the abyss carefully to find my secret oasis. Waiting for me there was the man I always was and am to date, held subdued by my heart to avoid feeling heartache again. I realized that I was not living. Simply coasting through life waiting for the fates to make my life do what i wanted it to. You cannot expect that if you do not let you true nature come forth to your very core being. Not changing actions or how I am as a person, as a MAN. Only how I reacted to obbstacles and people of any and all kinds. Strong willed, rough N' tough, romantic, and outspoken. I have now, finally foundwho I am and will be. Nothin, no one,can ever push me back into the shy, reserved little person I used to be. I am ready for the world and everything it will teach me. I only hope the world is ready for someone like me.