cowboyrev: A Bridge Over Troubled Waters

A Bridge Over Troubled Waters

Sep 25 2017 at 06:34am
About 17 years I struggled not only with homosexuality, but also I struggled with being a Christian. I mean, how can I be a Christian and also be gay? So, I did the only thing that I could do, I got honest with God and told Him everything that I was thinking and feeling. Then, some how, I was going to find some way to bring the two together. I knew that me being gay wasn't just something that I just woke up one morning and decided to be gay. Being gay, was just who I am. I dug into the Bible looking for any and all answers that I could find. Then in 2004, I attended my first service at Cathedral of Hope Church, a gay church. As I sat there looking around, tears started to build up, here in the same room as I was a roomful of homosexuals seeking after the same God that many as preached hated them. It was at that moment, when I found what I was looking for, a bridge over troubled waters.
Throughout history in the Bible, God constantly changes the rules, so to speak. In the beginning God created Adam and Eve, and then many years later, through Moses, divorce can into the system. Then Jesus came along and completely changed how things were ran. The times are completely different now then they were then. An update is required.
I'm just a man, the baby of 8 kids, physically abused by a brother, verbally abused by a sister, mentally sexually abused by a friend of the family and for years I dealt with the side effects. Until I met Jeffrey, through his love and patience, I, once and for all I broke the chains of my restraints. And through his love, I realized that 2 men can be in a loving relationship. No sex, just 2 people who loved the other. Unfortunately, this relationship was only temporary, due to outside forces, Jeffrey did a 180 and left me. In that short time that we were together though, I learned so much about what love really is.
Being gay, to me, doesn't mean a license to have sex with men, but it means that I'm simply attracted to men, I want to be with a man. I want to find what Jeffrey and I had, only this time, I want it to be permanent. And I believe it will be.

Cathedral of Hope

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